To be or not to be

I should....
I shouldn't....

I should....
I shouldn't....

I should....
I shouldn't....

Now, I understand very well why some people suicide ...

Dear God
As a new year gift, would you please give me an eraser to remove some part of my memory and
some foot prints in my heart?

I have got enough suffer, Please be a better God in 2009.

Regards:
Maryam

I need a job to:

Buy a new mascara of Dior
Try body massage in Hilton hotel
Continue my Salsa class
Eat in revolving restaurant in Kl tower
Buy new lens of night and days
Buy special glasses for computer
Buy new Lancome cosmetics
.....

does having all these worth working like a donkey!?

.
I hate to see couples that consist of:

A white old man with a young Thai girl
A married lady with a single guy
An old divorced lady with a teenager guy

And beyond all :

A married man with another married lady!

Whatever is the reason of their relationship, it just reminds me a dirty unfair society.

Lack of life

Lack of sleep
Lack of time
Lack of joy
Lack of family
Lack of love!

Am i really alive?

I should not compare myself with a donkey.
Of course donkey has a better life!

best news in the hardest moments of life

Oh My God
I am so happy that i can't describe my feeling.
'I have not been so thrilled like this for a long time.
last time when i had this feeling was 14th June, 2008.
.
Maping is back!
and I'm going to hug her tonight
to tell her how much i missed her this one month.
to tell her that i love her so much and i don't mind to tell it to everybody
even those stupid ones who judge us:)

My son,
you should know that you will regret soon
If you talk to me
When I'm hungry like a dog
and I'm tired like a horse.

Don't listen to your heart

Watch your steps,
Danger is just near!

Hey Dec
Hey Jan
When are you going to end?
When are you going to stop?
Is there any way to skip of you two?

Just to remember

Once upon on a time a young girl was trying hard to get what she deserve it
to live as she should be, to get all her rights, all the thing she should have them and for many reasons
She couldn't have had them before...

Once upon on a time in the middle of her journey she was exhausted, she couldn't bear all those suffering, she was too sensitive to join the real world, she couldn't feel the life as she expected and the only friend of her was her tears that help her to bear all those moments...

Once upon a time the girl, who decided to do her best, understood there would be no happiness in the feature if she doesn't feel happy now. She felt she has got the point, "happiness is about now" and she should stop thinking and do whatever to make herself happy

Once upon a time the girl got all what she deserves it, happiness :)